I just made a mistake and deleted my first blog entry which I wrote this morning. Behh....
I can feel my stomach tightening with nervous tension while my mind is set to regurgitating what I can remember. I loved what I wrote this morning! I wrote it with appetite and with emotional clarity and the words seemed to flow so effortlessly out of my head into the screen. There was no agenda apart from the sheer pleasure of sharing insights that felt relevant and yummy. It felt nourishing and fulfilling.
And now I am forcing an outcome by working my brain because my mind says ‘let’s get it done and over with’. Also because I feel very attached to the image that went with the old blog. It’s a little like deciding to eat because it's lunch or dinner time, regardless of whether there's hunger or not. And then deciding what to eat and how much to eat because it's 'healthy' or because it's what's left in the fridge.
Yep, it's what the mind does when it comes to food and eating, forcing its own view of how our PHS regimen ought to be experienced. It tells us when to eat, what to eat and how to eat regardless of the body's natural timing and preference.
I am a Consecutive eater, and although I am operating in a consecutive manner focusing on my task without mixing in other ingredients, it's my mind that wants to complete the task so that I can move on to another. This blog may turn out to be a little indigestible as a result….
But - there's the lesson. What do you force yourself to do or eat regardless of what feels right inside? And how can you tell when it appears to be ‘correct’?