It looks like today is the day I have the energy to share some thoughts with natural appetite, after a long pause.
I always say to emotional projectors that we are the slowest designs and that we are truly blessed in this way. Of course this is completely personal and coming from a growing sense of comfort with my design and the way it operates. My favourite motto has always been - ‘when in doubt have a cup of tea’ - literally and theoretically.
I have been in slow waiting mode, more so than ever in this past year, during which the world has seen so much change and drama and - mutation. Covid came and brought with it massive shifts and changes in everyone’s way of life.
The world has slowed down and there are many new limitations. There is also a lot of fear and tension in the background, given the physicality of the pandemic on various levels. There is the mass fear of catching the virus and there is tension around social distancing and the restrictions that are imposed on movement and activities like travel, cultural pursuits and social gatherings.
Ironically this is a perfect time to explore body intelligence and to test one’s individuality by following type strategy and rediscovering inner authority. It’s also a very exciting time to begin to experience the gifts of one’s differentiated brain and cognitive potential with PHS food intake, correct environment and also view and motivation.
Not so much as a ‘doing’ activity, but more of an ongoing embodiment observation exercise.
In my case I have been observing some interesting themes that are related to my design and inner authority. One example has been around the vaccine. I realise this is potentially an explosive topic but highly relevant for our purpose here, which is not about opinions, advice or social duty - but about self-alignment and differentiation. What Ra called ‘enlightened selfishness’.
To be honest my enlightened selfishness journey around the pandemic has been fraught with fear and inner fog and lots of amplified conditioning, but thankfully I now feel much more grounded in my ‘non-doing’ and inner authority. That’s what I mean about the blessing of being emotionally defined. When in doubt - have a cuppa…
When the call came by post it did not feel like an invitation, just an impersonal form. I had already been bombarded by warnings and opinions from both camps - the pro vax and the anti vax - from my family and the people I am close to. I noticed my open spleen was amplifying all the fear messages and threats and so of course it was time to Stop the world - and not make any decisions.
‘Sitting on the fence’ and not knowing, I can feel the comforting support of self-alignment. My emotional authority is pointing to nothing to do right now but waiting and observing. Self-alignment coming from inner authority is often unclear and uncertain mentally, but it feels right inside. That’s good enough for me.
Of course I have had to cross the gushing river of social criticism coming from the pro vax people, although the English are inherently polite. I have had a few people from the village raising an eyebrow disapprovingly, but I have also found that the language of inner authority is powerful and resonant even for people who don’t speak my language. Saying I don’t know yet and am still feeling into it is surprisingly effective with people I don’t really know.
What a surprising journey it has been, not just in terms of the vaccine so far, but also in terms of movement and social meetings. I do not go out very often which is fine by my body. I have become a bit of a recluse and not missing anything. That is a surprise for my mind.
My inner life has become richer and I am rigidly focused on my identified areas of interest, which is both fitting and reflecting a ‘cross of planning’ - my incarnation theme - during the last years of the global ‘planning’ cycle. My aloof 6th line body is ‘modelling’ social distancing just by following my strategy and authority, and my nose.
This truly is a time for the vehicle to live the life - in Ra’s words - and navigating, especially when it comes to places and people. All of us who are fortunate enough to have come across human design can rely on various signposts on top of strategy and inner authority. For example I can smell what’s potentially unsafe for me. My cognitive sense is the smell tone which supports my emotional authority just by breathing in through my nose.
And there are additional signposts from the transformation themes.
As soon as I think that I am failing in the social ‘power game’ and need to do something about it, I know I am off. That’s a warning from my Personal View signpost. Or as soon as I have an agenda with desire to stop an outcome or to reach an outcome like wanting to please people dear to me, or wanting to ‘conform’ so that I am left in peace - I know I am not in my correct Innocence motivation which is more like a relaxed ‘whatever’.
There is a lot going on in the world with many potential triggers to lose oneself in collective nervousness and fear. But the good news is that you have your own set of differentiated signposts to help you align with what’s correct for you, no matter what others think or say.
There was never a better time to dive deeper into your strategy, your inner authority and your differentiated self.