Lately I have been pondering the meaning of health, healing and recovery in the context of human design and especially the correct ways of guiding people who are moving through physical challenges.
Personally I don’t know much about medical science and physiology, but I am interested in observing the meeting place of internal and external authorities while reflecting transformation in the body, especially for people who follow their PHS food regimen.
My own experience in the last few years taught me that correct self alignment sometimes appears counter-intuitive if not dangerous to the collective homogenised principles of health and healing. It's what the differentiation process can look like, paradoxically.
I remember one of my first PHS clients who fell ill with a severe kidney infection and opted to stay at home in her cave room away from light. She recovered three long weeks later with no intervention and no medications apart from natural holistic remedies. A projector with indirect light as her regimen and caves as environment. Her authority kept resisting her husband’s panicked and persistent invitations to go to hospital.
At the time even I felt worried while supporting her and sometimes questioning her passiveness, which I kept to myself. She was my first radical differentiation model in action, which suits her well as a heretic. It was also my first edgy experience guiding someone through a painful physical dilemma.
It’s only now while moving through my second Saturn return as a 3/6, that I am beginning to see and experience the vulnerabilities of the differentiated body, as well as its mutative and self-recovery power. But it's also clear to me that there needs to be conscious awareness expressed in alignment with authority, in order to support such a process.
For generators it can be the voice of sacral response - a nine centred ‘healing miracle’ I have been witnessing with my intuitive Manifesting Generator partner, who is currently on remission from two types of cancer. Sharing his journey and supporting him in the last 4 years made me grow up a lot.
I noticed that every authentic gut-response brings renewed energy and vitality for him. And every forced mental decision results in exhaustion. His body doesn’t have energy to sustain incorrect decisions anymore.
And then there are times when I feel blessed to experience the meaning of communion between external authorities. Recently I was invited to guide a former projector client with whom I very much enjoy connecting.
As soon as we met on zoom my client shared that she is dealing with a difficult health challenge and as a result her life has been turned upside down. It came as a shock. My analyst mind reacted immediately by trying to figure out ‘where’ the challenge might be located on her chart, and seeing whether I can offer some solutions. But there was no energy nor appetite for it. What felt right was to keep quiet and to allow her to speak.
My client’s design is a triple split with all awareness centres defined including her head and ajna - none of which are linked. One of her challenges is transcending the mental pressure to act spontaneously based on ideas and interpretations. When under pressure she can struggle connecting with the timing and nature of her emotional process.
Listening very intently with my quad-left focus, there came a moment when I could ‘smell’ a different vibe and a different content. It’s when I finally spoke in support of what I recognised as potentially relevant to her situation. Her mind sounded confused for a while, but a truth relevant to her situation was being explored. There followed many pauses.
Finally came an emotional release with relief and awe. Something has shifted. What just happened?...
Somehow my client had clear access to her splenic 'Well' and it could directly connect with her emotional depth without being controlled by old certainties. Looking at the transits later I could see that the conditioning forces were supporting her, first linking her splenic awareness with her emotional authority and also defining her open throat so that her process was expressed and voiced and - manifesting a shift in her state.
It was the right timing for her to access a clear conscious signal from inside her, and it was the right timing for us both to connect. My client shared with me a few days later that when she went to see her doctor next, he was surprised to observe that her condition shifted from chronic to treatable. It was very good news. Of course it's not the end of her healing process. It would be naive to expect everything to shift miraculously at once.
Weirdly, when I wanted to listen to the sessions’s recording in order to trace and to understand exactly ‘what happened’ between us, I realised that the most important part of our session had not been recorded thanks to a technical glitch. That's the program for you… Not knowing is ok too.